Chapter 516 If I Could Choose

and nodded. "Gē'er, I didn't expect your taste to be getting better and better." 。"Uncle Ning, you are too kind." 。"By the way, Ge'er, are you planning to stay here forever" Ning Zhiyuan looked at th..."Singing is not a crime! My uncle raised private soldiers, colluded with the enemy and betrayed the country. The evidence is irrefutable, that's what he deserves. What does this have to do with Ge’er" Qian Yi'an's voice was chillingly cold, laced with barely suppressed rage.

“A lullaby You actually call her by such an intimate name” Shu Fei realized that the relationship between her son and Xiao Yuge seemed to be far more complicated than she had imagined. She couldn't help but feel a chill run down her spine: “An'er, you are my son, you should stand on my side! Xiao Yuge is just a vixen who brings chaos and destruction to the country. How can you help her You worked so hard to get everything you have now, would you give it all up for a woman”

Even if she is a calamity that brings ruin to the country, this son would be willing to be with her. Even though everyone in the world says she is bad, he thinks she is excellent. No one has ever protected him before, only she. She is the only warmth in his heart, and also an inviolable bright moon!

“Foolish fool!” When Shu Fei saw his stubbornness, she was so angry that her face flushed red, and she blurted out: “How could I have given birth to such a fool as you! You are a disaster star. If it wasn't for your birth, when I was injured, I couldn't give birth anymore, your father emperor wouldn't be disappointed in me, wouldn't ignore me, and wouldn't banish me to the cold palace. All of this is because of you! I originally thought that with your current status, I could also enjoy a comfortable life, but you actually went to befriend that despicable woman who killed your uncle's entire family. If I had known this earlier, I shouldn't have given birth to you! I should have strangled you to death when you were born!”

Shuf妃's hysterical words were like a steel knife thrust cruelly into Qian Yi'an's heart. His heart, already riddled with wounds, felt the new pain adding to the old, making it unbearable. Yet he had long since ceased to feel the pain. His emaciated body trembled slightly within his wide robes, unsure whether it was from sadness and grief or anger.

From a young age, he endured the scorn of others. He thought that he could find comfort in his mother's embrace, but who knew that his mother only pretended to love him in front of outsiders, garnering sympathy, while privately she held nothing but hatred and torment for him. She hated this crippled self of his, blaming him for her loss of the emperor’s favor. She even wanted to strangle him on more than one occasion.

“My son would rather you had never brought him into this world! He wishes you had killed him the moment he was born!” Perhaps that way, his life wouldn’t be so pathetic! His eyes were filled with numbness and despair.

His biological mother despised him, resented him, and wished he were dead. Even from a young age, he knew that his arrival was unwelcome to everyone. He struggled to live, carefully navigating life, locking himself within this tiny space, allowing himself to wither away on his own.

"What did you say" Shu Fei didn't expect the usually submissive son to say such a thing. At that moment, she was also stunned, her tearful eyes looked at him in disbelief, as if she couldn't believe the words just came out of his mouth.

"From childhood to adulthood, you have always blamed me for being a cripple, for not receiving the Emperor's favor, and for causing you to lose your grace. You have always scorned and hated me, but is this my fault Do I have a choice If I could, I would rather that you had never given birth to me. I wouldn't even want to come into this cold and heartless world!" In these short twenty years of life, he has witnessed the warmth and coldness of human nature, endured all kinds of insults. If he could, he would choose to die at the moment of his birth.

Though enraged, Shu Fei was oblivious to her own fault. Seeing him talk back, her anger flared even hotter, and she slapped him across the face with a crisp sound: "How dare you!"

The house suddenly fell silent, so silent that the only sound was the sharp ringing echoing within, as if it were meant to shatter their already fragile bond of mother and son.

Qian Yi'an did not dodge or move. He took the blow head-on. His already pale face instantly sported five bloody finger prints. He swallowed, along with the salty, metallic taste in his mouth. This kind of life had never been what he wanted, but from the beginning to the end, he had no choice, hadn't he

If children could choose their parents and the time of their birth, many would not want to come into this world, and there would be many parents without children! Being born disabled is not his fault, but his mother blames him for everything. He is powerless to defend himself or escape...

"If you continue to involve yourself with Xiao Yuge, this palace will make her disappear from this world!" Shu Fei gritted her teeth. At this moment, she hated Xiao Yuge to the core, believing that it was Xiao Yuge who caused her to lose her family and her son's respect, yet she never reflected on whether her own actions were wrong.

"If the Empress Dowager dares to touch her, this son will definitely not let it go!" For the first time in his life, Qian Yi'an rebelled. Those eyes devoid of any warmth seemed like a god of death descending upon the mortal world. When Shu Fei saw them, his heart couldn't help but tremble. In order to protect the only warmth in his heart, he had changed. Because he knew, only power could safeguard what he wanted to protect!

"Could it be that you would kill your own mother for that wretch" Shu Fei questioned, her voice trembling.

"This son would never kill his mother, but if Mother Consort truly killed her, then you wouldn't mind losing another son!" Xiao Yuge was the only warmth in his heart. If even this warmth disappeared, from now on he would only be a monster, a cold and ruthless creature who only understood killing.

Perhaps he didn't want to become that way himself, so he would try his best to protect the warmth, grasp the ray of light, and prevent himself from falling into the abyss.

"What did you say" Shu Fei stared at her son with cold eyes, disbelief etched on her face. For the first time, she found him terrifying, or perhaps she had never known he possessed such a side, such a chilling gaze that extinguished her anger as if by magic.

"來人哪，母妃累了，送母妃回宮休息！" Qian Yi'an ordered expressionlessly, that emotionless gaze also telling Shu Fei: From now on, his matters are his own, and no one else should interfere!

When Lianxin returned, she saw the red marks on her master's face. She skillfully took out medicine from a drawer beside her and said as she applied it, "My Lord, although Your Lady spoke a bit harshly, she did it for your own good. You shouldn't have contradicted her like that. She must be very upset inside." It seemed that this kind of thing wasn't happening for the first time.

Qian Yi'an pursed her lips: " Lianxin, do you also think that this palace should listen to the empress dowager and stay away from Ge'er"’s mansion. He wanted to visit her, but she wouldn’t let him in."Feng Ge, my wound is almost healed," Xiao Yu Ge shook her arm to prove she wasn't lying, then tilted her head and looked inside: "How i...